We’ve officially been apart for five days now. 

Five. 

It’s killing me that I can’t see you or hold you; kiss you or touch you. My heart breaks every time that I look over in the middle of the night and you aren’t next to me. I wish I was exaggerating, but I’m not.

I know that this is temporary. I will see you soon. I can sleep soundly knowing that you love me and that I love you. But it’s hard to get through the days without your company. 

And I have to think, can my heart take this for an entire year when we both leave the country? I don’t know. I do know that I deal with this distance again and again if it meant always being with you. There is no doubt in my mind that we can make it. I love you more than I ever thought possible and I know we can tough it out. 

I would just much rather have you with me always.

Forever.

I want to stay in this place forever.

To feel your arms, chest, heart so close to mine.

To feel your embrace. 

I want to grow up with you.

Grow old with you.

And watch our friends do the same.

I want to feel those butterflies.

The ones you always give me.

I want to harness your laugh. 

Your smile.

To love you as much as one person can.

To show you how beautiful you are.

Though you would never believe me.

I want to stay here, right here, forever.

I don’t want to have to cross counties. Countries.

But it’s inevitable.

I want you to still hold me

To still love me.

Despite the oceans, lakes and rivers between us.

Can we just stay here? 

At least a little longer 

To see just a glimpse of forever.